You thrill me, Lord, with all you have done for me! I sing for joy because of what you have done. ~ Psalm 92:4
Our daughter has arrived! She was a little bit early. Her "estimated due date" was September 15 and the C-section that I had scheduled with my doctor was set for September 12. However, I went into labor beginning at 1:30 a.m. on September 4th...the morning after my little man's 4th birthday! At least she waited a few hours so that she and *B would not have to share a birthday.
I had never been in labor before so it was a crazy time for me. (With *B, I had a scheduled C-section since he was breech, and I never went into labor.) Not only was I in pain, but I also had the chills very badly. My teeth would even chatter!
My mom took me to the emergency room and they rushed me to the maternity ward. There, the nurse informed me that I was 3cm dilated and the doctor on call would be in to see me. About an hour later, I was being shuffled into the Operating Room, alone, for my surgery. Oh, how I wished for my husband just then!
There I was, alone and afraid, being prepped for a major surgery to welcome our little girl into the world. I remember the uncontrollable shaking and the pain of the spinal tap. A lot of action going on around me in the room. A nurse was busy setting up a laptop so that *P could watch our little girl come into the world "with" me. I felt so afraid and I didn't know why. I did not feel that way with my first C-section. Perhaps that was because *P was with me that time.
Just as they were about to cut me open, I asked where my Dad was. We had planned for him to be in the OR with me so that he could take the baby's first photos. After all, he is a photographer. Someone rushed out to get him and he sat by my head as I lay, helpless and shaking, on the operating table.
I kept looking at the computer screen to catch glimpses of my husband. It was hard for me, though, because of my shaking. I felt sick inside, like I would vomit, for a moment. All I could think about was how scared I was, how I wanted to get out of there, how I should have maybe just pushed the baby out instead. I told my dad, "I don;t want to do this!" And I told him that I was scared. He asked me why. I didn't really have an answer. But, I said that I wasn't sure if the baby would be healthy. That fear crossed my mind. I also feared that I might die. It was a crazy time for me!
Within a matter of minutes, the doctor told me that I might feel some pressure as they pulled the baby out. I did not feel ONE THING - so I was pretty shocked when I suddenly heard the cry of our baby girl. She was out! She was alive and well! I was okay! My dad stood up to take photos and I laughed and cried simultaneously, just as I had when *B was born.
The doctor said that she was crying on her way out - and she continued to cry for a good while. A nurse carried the laptop around the room, following the baby, so that *P could watch as she was cleaned off, weighed, foot printed, and swaddled.
It was, as childbirth is, an amazing experience. We are so blessed to have added a beautiful baby girl to our family. We will call her *S.
She was born weighing 7 lbs and 2 oz...and was 18 inches long.
Below is a transcript of mine and *P's dialogue on the morning of our daughter's birth. Part of it being text messages and part being email messages. (Unfortunately, at that particular time, *P's cell phone could not send out text messages. But, he could receive them from me, thankfully.)
Sept 4, 2012
Me: I have had 3 very painful contractions in the last 20 mins.
Me: Just had 2 more much weaker contractions. I guess that's what they are??? How do I know??
Me: Maybe I should try and use the bathroom. Or maybe this lil girl wants out today. (Perhaps my walk outside tonight worked) I am in pain.
*P: Holy cow. What are you going to do? Is she coming? Gosh I wish I was there..
Me: I dunno. I have the chills tho. I will prolly go ask my mom in a lil bit.
*P: I was just about to leave and take a shower. I rushed back to see what you were up to. You shouldn't be up this late, but I guess that is a normal reason.
Me: I can't get your texts but will text YOU if anything changes and email ya
*P: Oh my gosh. Keep me posted. I gotta shower but text me. Love ya.
Me: I am gunna go to the hospital in an hour or so. I think this is Labor!!
About 3:15 a.m. or so - Arrive at Emergency Room
Me: I feel a little scared for surgery...whenever it happens. Pray that God calms me.
Me: I am in the hospital. The nurse said I am likely in labor. Doc is coming soon to check. I am, totally.
*P: Hey baby. How are you doing? I will be by a computer for the rest of the day so I can reply to you. Did you take out your contacts? I am praying for you sexy.
Me: Did u want to watch via skype? I wouldn't know when yet but soon. Call me if u can
Me: Contacts r staying in. This sucks so bad. Lots of pain. I just wanna get this surgery going.
4:40 a.m. - Nurse is setting up the laptop for Skype
Me: Being in labor is awful. I am 3 cm dilated. An on call doc is doing the surgery
*P: What are the docs telling you? Who has B? Is he sleeping? Who is with you?
5:21 a.m. - Our daughter is born via C-section as *P watches via Skype
Call or email me. I have our daughter!
7:55 a.m. - (I texted *P the first pic of baby *S)
Me: I don't have my laptop set up yet...so I am not emailing anyone else yet.
*P: She is beautiful
*P: I will be on skype in a minute
*P: Hey momma. I am back and will be up for another hour or so before I go to bed. Send me any and all details. I am proud of you baby.
Me: 37 hours with zero sleep. Think it might be nap time.